Blog-TOWER OF BABEL

Since i have been unemployed, all i want to do is shop online. I shop for things i normally would not shop for. Glamorous things, that I see in Vogue magazine. Christian Louboutin shoes, Manolo Blahnik, and Jimmy Choo, David Yurman jewelry, PREVAGE® night cream, Latisse eyelash lengthener, tooth whiteners, and La Mer hand cream. I think this all may indicative that I think there is something wrong with me.

I need more. I may end up on Oprah, stating that I had a normal life before unemployment. Am I going to start to collect phonebooks, automotive parts and unread newspapers? Where is my hunger for things coming from. Believe me, I have been in therapy on and off for 15 years, He would tell me that I have a hunger that cannot be fed, unless I go to work.

When i was employed, I would only buy things I needed. I buy shoes with 4 inch heels, which is ridiculous, because that would make me 6 foot five. Will people notice me more? They would say "oh, there is that jobless tall girl, with the 900.00 shoes. We cannot hire her, because she has money to buy shoes on Ebay." It is a way of jumping up and down, and saying "here I am"?

Will my son and I sit down and be able to eat this shoes for dinner? What type of sauce goes with Jimmy Choo? Hoisin? No. It is not practical, and I am a very practical pragmatic person. I would only buy things if i could eat it, have multi-uses and would last a long time. shoes only last a season.  Where did my sanity go? It is back to the shrink with the credit cards locked up in the safe.